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Monday, December 22, 2008, 9:56 pm
Past one week has been a heavy week with lots of quarrels with the boyfriend. Okay, with the exception of Saturday and Sunday. Today started pretty fine too except for some small bumps here and there. Sometimes, I wish I could stand in his position and see what I could not see from my side. And sometimes I wished he could be in mine. But neither is possible, so yea. The way he reacts, his behaviour and talking sometimes makes me feel so uncomfortable because I feel it is all negative. I'm attracted to him cause of his rebelious ways, short-temper, possesiveness and etc. But sometimes I hate myself so much for liking the "bad" side of him cause it makes it so difficult for me to leave. NOT that i want to leave or anything, but I can't seem to not solve anything and leave it at a standstill situation where you just ignore the person for the time being. And on some occasions, the very reason that I'm attracted to him backfires me by causing me hurt.Sometimes I really want him by my side, and sometimes I just want to be all alone and sometimes I dont even know what I'm feeling. I was so strong that this could go for long. But now, i'm so scared. My confidence is washing away. I guess, let time decide.