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Wednesday, March 04, 2009, 1:55 am
Okay, after a long long long period of time I'm updating again. So much has changed during my absence from my blog. Exams are over, holidays have started, first time clubbing and I is single. LOL!Oh well relationship wise, enough tears shed, enough love shown and enough hurt gotten in return. I guess if it is meant to be, it will be. Else, what goes around, comes around. I did feel like shit all this while thinking where I could have went wrong and tried so much to make it up to you. But you never saw that. You wanted your time and your space and you simply neglected me leaving me dangling in the air. I was clueless as to what was happening and you neve bothered to answer to my questions. I have made mistakes and I have also tried to make up for it. But none of it seems visible to you cause you are heavily blinded by all e mistakes i did that you couldn't see no good coming from me. But coming to think of it now, I have no need to feel like shit. I changed myself how much I could and tried to adapt to your character. I gave up talking to people you disliked. Even if it was not an immediate effect. I tried to control my temper and gave in to you now and then. I put up with your suspicious behaviour. And others which i don't wish to mention here. But all these vanished into the thin air in just one split second. It took you just a moment to forget that I even existed. What a fool I was to think that you would never do this to me and that you would return. Oh well, I guess everyone enters your life for a reason and you must have one too. Through those, sleepless nights, non stops tears and never ending heart aches you have made me into a stronger woman. And through the relationship you have taught me patience, how to control my temper and how to control my rebellious ways. Hats off to you for that. Thanks alot. If doing what you did to me makes you happy then so be it. :)
And as much as I am single, I am not open to another relationship as yet. Sometimes it is so irritating when guys ask you if you can see them more than a friend and that if they stand a chance with you in the future. For godsake, I have got a heart and rest assured it is not made out of paper. I have feelings and I'm not planning to engage into another relationship anytime soon. I rather be single and do with casual dates for now. Which i already am. :)
THANK YOU.
As for school, exams are OVER and the hols have began! Haven't started on any job yet and don't intend too as I'm having more than enough money through some source. ;) You know who you are and thanks! Hence, I am simply enjoying my holidays to the maximum that I can. And I can wait to collect my new CANNON IXUS 870IS!! Thanks again! :) Can't wait for the class chalet on the 4th april. Got to attend this one as I have missed out on countless outings! :P And of course, can't wait for the outing with RAJEN AND GOWRI! I miss them so so so so so much can!! Got to meet up with them devour on FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD! :D
Also, i have just joined a bhajan group recently through Praba (baba). I'm simply loving it and thanks Praba! I'm still yet to continue my classical singing and dancing. I'm feeling so lazy to go and sign up again. Oh well, I dont have much of a choice.
And finally I am clubbing tom!! It is going to be my first time and I probably sound like an excited kid now but who cares?! Can't wait to finally see my lost love, GOWRI! Its been eons since I met her and what would a first clubbing experience be w/o GOWRI?! Hence, tom is going to be so happening and I can't wait for it! Would be going with a group of ten people so I think that would make the experience far more interesting one! So I better go and get my beauty sleep now!
nights world.