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pocketful of sunshine.mp3 - Natasha bedingfield
Tuesday, June 10, 2008, 1:50 pm
Moments to remember

I'm still waiting. I'm missing your presence alot. When you were right beside me, I took you for granted. Now when you are distant, I'm missing you so much. I just dont know how to lead life without you. I'm trying though.

But I just want you to know, I can't be truly happy without you and I'm living with the hope that you will be back and that I'm still there in your heart.

Remember those times? Especially genting. When I was so scared to go for the space shooter, you hugged me and assured me that it will okay and after the ride when I was horrified you just hugged me tight and comforted me.

How about in the airport? You messaged me like as if you would never be able to book out from camp but got every details from me on where I was deployed at. And then suddenly you appeared fom behind with a ring in your hand and you waited for me for 6 hours till my shift ended.

Do you remember the time when we went to temple on our first month anniversary and the priest looked at us and asked us if we just had our ROM? Remember how happy we were?

Do you atleast remember the last day of genting and we had a heated arguement and you didnt want me to leave the room cause it was dangerous outside and so you left instead. I was angry at first but after a while when you didnt come back I was so afraid and started to worry. After some time when I opened the door, you stood there and I pulled you inside and just hugged you tightly and started crying. I never felt so secured than anything when in your arms.

Are you asking me to forget all these and move on? If I do, I'm probably heartless. I know we had alot of fights but of course the good times overpower the bad ones right? You were there toleating all my nonsense and hurt. Now it's my turn. I'm not a coward to just leave you and find someone else. I love you and I will wait. I know deep down, you too love me. And I'm very sure of that. I miss resting on your chest, hugging you so tight that I feel most secured, you playing with my hair and all those wrestling on the bed. I miss it all! I know you do too.

Just know that I'm really sorry for everything and that I'm changing. Its you and you only.

Get well soon!

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Saturday, April 21, 2007, 11:00 pm

She cries herself to sleep every night secretly wishing that there was more to it. That he would understand her better than that. That when she said no she meant yes. That when she said she didnt want him she actually wanted him more than ever.

Honestly, was it that difficult?


I never really knew whether you wanted an 'us'. You never made an effort to. But I was quite sure of myself though. I knew I wanted an 'us'. I knew that I loved you for that total non bf material you were. I loved you for being such an irritant though you were quite insensitive at times. I knew that I would never get over you no matter what. I knew that I loved you alot though I have never quite showed it. But I was never sure about how you felt. I was left to my assumptions. And thus it resulted as such.



I wish I had knew how you felt. What if there was a tinge of hope left?
Hell, I hate it when give myself hope.


The more I try to take my mind off you, the more I find myself missing you. Those memories may not mean much to you but they do a whole lot to me.




Need I deny more?


I LOVE YOU.



and I wish you do too.

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